Many of us ache on a regular basis – day in, day out…
It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for….
The Invitation – Oriah Mountain Dreamer
But how many of us are willing to name that ache and go after it? Many nights I ache for the loss of my husband, for the loss of his company and the closeness that we shared. Many days I wonder “Will I ever find it again”? I ache for the intimacy that a deep commitment offers. I ache for the ability to talk deep into the night about my fears, my longings, my joys. I want to experience and share that deep part of myself with someone who can be fully present with all my emotions, the depth and breathe of them – the intensity of them – without stepping back, without joking me out of it and certainly, without judging them. I long for a connection with someone who is willing to share his fears, his hopes, and his dreams without censor, without diminishing their strength. My desire for this intimacy may ask me to make a fool of myself, to bare my soul and find a yawning void as the man looks back at me with a blank stare, an inability to understand or the fear of touching deep emotions too closely. I hope my desire eclipses my fear and I find the connection I yearn for. Daily, I make the commitment to myself to chance love one more time, refusing to settle for less than my heart’s desire.
What do you ache for? What are you willing to chance to achieve it?